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Pink Elephant. 

I somehow managed to stop focusing on weight and food and exercise and calories for a couple weeks – I was working overtime and think I was just too busy to think about it – and, lo and behold, I got back to 122. But then of course I started thinking about it more and worrying about maintaining that and wishing I could keep going and now I’m right back to obsessing about food and eating junk all the time and I’m afraid when I get on the scale again I’ll be back up five pounds. And like I wish I could just go back to that mindset from a couple weeks ago, but of course it’s like the pink elephant – when you try not to think about it, it’s the first thing to come to mind. Sigh.