From my ED. I b/p’d tonight for the first time in a while and I’m just so disgusted with myself. Firstly I’m disgusted for eating so much that I felt the need to purge; secondly I’m disgusted that I’m still sticking my head in the toilet; third I’m disgusted that I only got a fraction of the food out. Will I ever be able to have snacks in the house without them becoming binge food? I’m becoming less and less confident that I’ll ever be normal with food. I’ll be sticking my head in the toilet when I’m 70… If I make it that long.