Sometimes I just want to give up. I’ll nene be thin, so why keep trying and feeling bad for failing? My inner fat kid wants to come out. But then I think I’d be even more miserable because I’ll have objective proof of my fatness instead of just feeling this way.
My doctor did my BMI the other day; I think she was trying to be helpful by showing me that I’m at the low end of normal but all I heard was “normal, not special, not thin.”
I just want to be thin.