Hopeless

Sometimes I just want to give up. I’ll nene be thin, so why keep trying and feeling bad for failing? My inner fat kid wants to come out. But then I think I’d be even more miserable because I’ll have objective proof of my fatness instead of just feeling this way. 

My doctor did my BMI the other day; I think she was trying to be helpful by showing me that I’m at the low end of normal but all I heard was “normal, not special, not thin.” 

I just want to be thin. 

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