What a disappointment. 

Whenever I go to the grocery store, I walk by all the baked goods and think everything looks and smells delicious. So today I had to stop by for something really quick, and I decided that since I’m home alone today I would buy all this shit and have myself a good old-fashioned b/p sesh. So I did, and it was 100% not worth it. The food was not as good as I’d remembered, and it didn’t all come out like I wanted it to. I don’t know why on earth I thought this would be a good idea. I’m so mad at myself, and disgusted. I was finally starting to get into healthy eating habits – last night I chose a handful of nuts over junk for a snack – and I’m afraid I’ve just ruined it. I’m trying to calculate how long I’ll need to work out to burn off what I couldn’t get up, and I’m thinking it’s going to be at least two hours. The worst part is, I wasn’t even upset about anything; I wasn’t using it as a coping method. So why did I do that? Why??


2 thoughts on “What a disappointment. 

  1. Nuts are a good snack! Don’t be so hard on yourself. I can’t make a healthy choice to save my life after 8pm. I have 30 pounds I’ve put on in the last year, mostly over the last 3 months. When I’m stable and feel good, food is so good! I have got to learn control myself. You seem to be your own best coach, my inner coach tells me to grab the chips, we’ll start tomorrow. You actually just helped me. I need to change that voice.


  2. Nuts are not a horrible snack 🙂
    But I understand the disappointment. A while back I decided to eat chicken tenders and fries for a cheat meal. And my goodness the meal was not nearly as good. I don’t know that since I ate it slower and was able to actually taste the food instead of inhaling that I realized it didn’t taste nearly as good. I feel that I ate my food so fast before that I imagined the taste almost. It just part of the journey of understanding how different it is now.

    Good luck!


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