I’ve worked so hard in the past two months to eat cleanly and improve my fitness. I’ve stopped buying candy at work and have started running at least three days a week, ideally four or five. But in the past week I’ve basically undone all of that. I’ve eaten literally POUNDS of sugar, and haven’t gotten off my ass much at all. I can literally feel myself getting flabby, but I’m doing nothing to stop it. I’m obsessed with thoughts of eating, and the only activity I want to do involves moving from the couch to bed and back. I feel completely out of control – which is kind of crazy, because these are things that should be easy to control. All I need to do is stick to my workout routine and stop stuffing my face. I know what to do but I can’t seem to actually follow through. Why do I do this to myself?? I know eating this shit and not working out is going to make me feel worse, not better, and yet I continue to repeat the cycle. I want to blame it on stress, personal conflict, etc., but that’s not a fair assessment – it’s just me being a fat, lazy sack of shit.